so let me get this straight- what *I* want for my life *DOESN'T* matter because of my mom?

i'm glad i get someone to talk to about what goes on with me or i'd go crazy. for instance, i told my therapist today about how ridiculous i thought it was for my cousin to just expect me to forget EVERYTHING i worked my ass off to get in rehabilitation and all the college classes, along with the jobs i've worked JUST to depend on social security just to stay by my mom just because she supposedly helped me so much after my car accident. my therapist looked at me confused and said, "LIKE WHAT did she do for you after your car accident?" then i said, "she walked with me and helped me get in and out of the bath and took care of me.. you know.. LIKE PARENT RESPONSIBILITIES." then my therapist said, "yeah.. you're right.. she is your mom. she should act like it." when a parent has a child- the child is THEIR RESPONSIBILITY as long as they're able to help them. i'm not even a damn parent and i know that. THAT IS OF COURSE IF THEY ACTUALLY CARE ABOUT THEIR KIDS. i get the feeling that my mom is pissed off that she didn't do more with her life and is trying to prevent someone who came from the same place from actually doing something with their lives because she's an unaccomplished jealous bum. i realize i have NOTHING to lose- and those people are the most dangerous. don't try me. it's ONLY UP from here. I'M NOT GOING BACK TO APPEASE A PERSON WHO FEELS TOO USELESS TO DO ANYTHING BUT PAY ATTENTION TO HER CHILDREN AT HER OWN CONVENIENCE AND BENEFIT. GRANDMA'S DEAD. NO ONE IS GOING TO CODDLE YOU ANYMORE. TIME TO PUT ON YOUR BIG GIRL PANTIES BEFORE AMY AND JAY SHOVE YOU IN A NURSING HOME.. them or the state.. which might be more probable considering you can't always call to them and whine about things- well, i suppose you could but they'd probably institutionalize you quicker. SO GIVE IT A SHOT! i also told my therapist about how my mom never used to give a shit that i wanted to move to new york- she knew even when i was in a wheelchair talking about it and she'd always say, "IT'S YOUR LIFE! LIVE IT HOW YOU WANT!" until recently- when i'm pretty sure the flying monkey and my fat sister came along. so i'm pretty sure this unencouragement originates between those two because they're jealous imbeciles who don't want to see me doing things with my life. mind your business. you're just wasting your time.